“….But the man who sounded the trumped stayed with me.” – Nehemiah 4:8
The last two days I’ve been feeling a disconnection between myself and God, not entirely but when I’d get in my head and panic mode I couldn’t hear him or feel him near. I had a hard time being in his word, mainly because I didn’t know where to go and the words didn’t seem to connect with how I was feeling, I couldn’t read about being courageous as I was in Joshua, even though courage is what I need, it wasn’t what spoke to me. I needed to see what was going on in the spirit world, I needed to see that God was fighting for me and that I’d be okay because things are still in motion. I flipped through my bible and hidden behind some papers was Nehemiah chapter 4 “opposition to the rebuilding”. Immediately I knew it would be my resting place for the night and almost every verse spoke to me. The verse that brought me comfort, is the one I quoted above. In the passage it’s talking about a human, but when I read it I saw Jesus. Jesus is the man with the trumpet, he sounds the trumpet when needed and he stays with me always. Even when the world seems to be falling beneath me, he still stands and he stands next to me. Not only did I need to see what was going on, with Gods plans and what the enemy was up to but I also needed to see and remember that Jesus is with me. He is with me as I’m being rebuilt, he is with me as the enemy tempts to destroy the new structure, he is with me as the enemy taunts and ridicules my efforts and God’s efforts at the rebuilding of my new life. He stands off to the side because that’s as close as God will allow him to get to me, and he yells, he throws rocks and he tries to destroy because that’s what he does but God says he is with me even then. Something huge is around the corner when the enemy starts to yell, his quiet lies aren’t working the way he wants so he yells them and he throws accusations against me about who I am and who I am not. “Our God will fight for us!” (vs 20) I’m human so sometimes I forget that. When the pain is excruciating and unbearable, when the lies are constant and when reality or being in the present hurts it’s hard to believe that God is with me and he is fighting the battle so I don’t have to. The good thing about having a relationship with God is that I can not only pray for him to turn the enemy’s plans and insults back on his head but I can also pray for him to help me when I forget he is with me/for me. He is a warrior and he is a Prince…tough yet tender and right now I need both. Thank God he sounds the trumpet and calls for his angels to fight for me and protect me and thank God he is with me. He is tearing down the old Jericho walls and rebuilding a new city on a hill within me.